...Looking for Another Shining Star that can Brighten The Path in Front of Me...

Dairy Queen tomorrow

2006-08-10T02:57:25Z

i think everyone should at least stop by dairy queen and get some ice cream from there because tomorrow, not only it's my birthday, but also, DQ Miracle Treat Day!

http://www.dairyqueen.com/en-US/mtd

Buy some ice cream and all the money goes toward all the kids that need help.

if you don't have time to get me birthday gift, then i think you should at least go get some ice cream and make me happy :)

happy miralces!

life's been good

2006-07-28T03:40:21Z

so i finally figured out, figured it all out for now. life's been good, food's been good, and so are the brownies... yum

MCAT is coming up in like 3 weeks... i hope i will be ready....

mad stuff to memorize, sigh... what a summer

and the answer is "NO"

you probably won't understand...

2006-07-19T13:12:44Z

i don't know if you'd ever understand why i did what i did... i feel terrible for doing it but you have to understand the circumstances i'm in and the way things are and the way things were before... she was a special one and i don't mean to hurt you b/c you're just another special person who i share my life with for quite a bit of time. i know that you def. hate my gut right now but i hope things will change as time goes on...

like i said... everything is still a variable and things can still change. now i know where you stand, i will try to figure out where i stand and have an answer for you... i guess we expected different things from the beginning but now i know so i will do my best to...

not a very good day for me

coming home coming home...

2006-05-05T04:15:13Z

yup, i'm coming home now... a lil excited but i'm only home for a week or less than a week so people, catch me when you can. oh and btw, my cell is all messed up, so i'm pretty disconnected with the world right now, IM me or email me or something if you want to meet up and chill...

home for less than a week and that's my summer... sigh...

lee.jenfu@gmail.com

i'm out

stop trying to use me

2006-04-20T06:28:01Z

Dear uh.... #*$)#@$!

Don't just talk to me when you need help or need me to do you a favor. You're not that great a person yourself and I do hope that you realize that. Everyone's got plenty to learn and you probably need to learn how to be a better person? Just a thought.

so yea, stop.

jenfu_penn4life @ 2005-12-31T16:13:00

2005-12-31T21:13:16Z

o wow... this year definitely went by too fast. There were good things and there were bad. I was just looking back on the journal I posted last year's today and everything just seemed so different now. What was before, is now entirely different. To appreciate the beauty of what was there and to accept what is coming in the future is definitely one of the gateways to growing up, not saying that I've grown tremendously but I did grow up a lil. People touch people's lives and many people touched mine this year.

It has been a wonderful year, in a way that I would never have expected. In the beginning of the year, I thought it was going to suck and didn't know what to think about what was going to happen. But everything turned out just fine. Miami with my mom, summer with Rob, lifeguard at point pleasant, trip to upstate new york, first semester of sophomore year (sucked but did get something out of it), met Tomoyo, and all my friends and everything, have made things very different and have made me look at things in a much more optimistic way. It was awesome, fucking awesome.

Alright now, time to list friends and family and the way they touched my life.

_______________________________________________________________________________________
ROB,

You motherfucker, I LOVE YOU TO DEATH and you know it, we spent the whole damn summer together like a couple. WE DID EVERYTHING together... crazy shit & dumb shit... we did it all. It was just two single men going all out and enjoying the beauty of being young and 18 and 19. Without you, everything would have been totally different. Lifeguarding together was one of THE best times in my life and you know it, too. Just chillin' at the beach every day... it was great. And tonight i'm going to drop by your house to have some words with you :) it'll be fun.

Tariq, Jandy, Brindle, Steve, Jay, Fabrice, Tyrie, Alex, Rob, CC, Cheryl, Jenna & all the people who I met through R-types,

The summer was off the hook. All the parties and all the times we all hung out and just had fun. It was ridiculous... especially that surprise party for Jandy, that was definitely the peak of everything. Even though summer was over, everyone got back together and did it for Jandy. Thanks to all of you!

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MOM & DAD,

Thank you for being there for me all the time. And Mom, you being here and taking me to Miami made me realize how much I still have with me, family and all your love. Now, you're here for Christmas and New Year and here spending time with me to talk about what is going to happen in the future and which path I should take on. Your presence definitely calms me down. Your advice is always good to hear, now I've learned, and good to think about. I was sooooo lost before but now I'm feeling a lil better about things and I still yet to figure out what exactly I want to do. Thank you. And Dad, thank you supporting me all the time. I know the grades this past semester weren't good but I will definitely pull it up next semester. I have learned that I shoudn't take on too much in short amount of time.

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Lisa,

You're always going to be my best best friend. :) You're always there for me and I try to always be there for you as well. Ever since senior year man, we just got along very very well :) I'm very very very glad that I know you and keep having the chance of hanging out with you. It's just something we always do when we get back from schoool, hang out at each other's house and watch movies... lol it's great! and having some girl/guy talk and update each other with new things that happened to us. It's been a lot of fun and my pleasure to have a friend like you! Love ya!
_______________________________________________________________________________________
TYLER, JON, SHUO, EH5 & THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR,

The first semester has been fun :) Roommates have been treating me well, except from times to times I will have some emotional outbursts, which usually scared the shit outa Jon. I'd try to keep everything in more of a control this coming second semester. FANTASY SPORTS has been a MAJOR MAJOR part of our roommates interaction, which is fine, until someone gets hurt and some gets too excited about their trades and about the trades they ripped off someone. Tyler and Shuo just became STUDY ANIMALS when the finals came aroud, which is quite ridiculous... leaving both me and Jon amazed and in awed.
About the girls next door, well, well, well. They have been a lot of fun to hang out with as well. I hung out w/ them in the beginning of the semester but then after first round of midterms... my grades were horrible and I just had to cut down some more time for studying so didn't get to hang out w/ them as much. We threw a GREAT GREAT FUCKING party, everyone enjoyed it... 180+ jello shots, that was my first and Katie's first... a lil ridiculous but fun. It was a great semester, socially but not much so academically for me. o well, bouncing back is necessary for next semester, that's all.
Oh, next semester, I'm going to start lifting again, so Ross, Tyler, Shuo and possibly Jon, be ready! And hopefully, we'll rock the intramural basketball :)

_______________________________________________________________________________________
Jen-Chieh,

I hope that I didn't treat you toooo badly this year. I will definitely try to improve as time goes on. I understand that mom and dad want you to do well so there is a lot of pressure on your shoulder, but just hang in there for one more year, after everything is set and done, you'll then learn to appreciate the hard work that you put in. Just ask me questions if there's anything you need regarding school stuff :) I'll help you as much as I could.

_______________________________________________________________________________________
All my friends & family in Taiwan, the mother land (or should I say ISLAND),

I finally went back to Taiwan this summer, after 4 years of waiting. I finally got to see everyone again. Things have DEFINITELY changed around there, especially all my friends. All of you have moved on to better and grater things. We're all still in school but Taiwan is just too different from U.S. now, in everything. I miss you all and I will definitely try to come visit again whenever I get time to. :) Take care everyone.

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Friends & Family in Rahway,

I love you guys all. Every time I came back from Penn, Rahway is the first place I think of and all the people who live around here. Even though I'm not in touched with too many ppl here any more, but there are still a few that I keep consistent relationship with, which is nice. Because whenever I came back, I'd have someone to visit and someone to hang out with, making me feel that this is my town and my place that I grew up as a teenager. So thank you all, everyone I know in Rahway is accounted for so don't feel left out :)
_______________________________________________________________________________________
Monique,

You're like the one and only black girl that I still keep in touch with, doesn't that make you feel special? lol You're a great friend of mine!!! And I will always come to you whenever I have any issues to talk about, whether is girl or anything else... just remember, you do have a good asian friend like me :) Rutgers dont' really count, they're not real. =P stay black, please.
_______________________________________________________________________________________
All the people I met in the summer,

Jim, Jay, Greg, Mike and all the lifeguards I worked with, I had a freakin blasT! thank you all and I will definitely try to go back to work with you guys again :)

Sarah, it was great meeting you!! what a nice person/mom you are, lol :) and damn, girl you can BOWL!!!
_______________________________________________________________________________________
Tomoyo,

Oh man, you're an awesome awesome girl. I am sooo glad that I got to meet you and somehow going out with you now =P You make things so much simpler and you make me learn how to appreiciate and look at things from a different angle. I also learned from you how to be optimistic about things in life... not everything we have to take it too seroiusly. Learn to accept and learn from mistakes and move on, really no point of looking back. thankfully i met you otherwise, this semester would definitely be WORSE. Like i said to you b4, this relationship is going much much better than I thought it would be. We'll just see how far we can take it this coming semester :) it'll be a hell lota fun!!! so excited. Oh, and I willl see you in like 2 days or so :) it'll be fun. So just take care and be safe =)
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oh, last and definitely LEAST, my dear PROFESSORS, ese especially,

please be a nice guy, and actually put the stuff we learn in class on the test. Thank you! i'm sure Santa will treat you better next year...

... my only ranting entry....
_______________________________________________________________________________________

ok, I think i'm done with the year 2005 here. If you think I have you left out in the entry, please don't b/c I'm just prolly just too dumb and couldn't remember everyone's name... My one and only entry of 2005 and it includes everything hopefully. I am really looking forward to 2006 and things that are yet to come.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

-jenfu-

...last day of the year...

2004-12-31T07:03:23Z

So... another year has passed by, fairly quickly. Lots of ups and downs... more ups, i THINK. It's been quite a year, I must say... everything began to take off right after I found out that I got accepted to Penn of last year on 12/15 I think that was.

After that, i made up a "LAUNDRY LIST" with Li... things I must accomplish until summer ends. (almost couldn't remember)... job, car and a girlfriend. All the way until the end of the summer, my laundry list was accomplished along with the tons of amazing, sweet, awesome memories that I have ever had in my life. I must say those 8 months were blast... looking back now, all i can say about each day, except for the car accident and drama, is HAPPINESS... pure happiness that no one can ever take away from me. Theses memories are going to be with me forever and ever as long as I live. All the people in it are going to be remembered. It's just simply amazing... really can't quite describe it all with words.

Then the months after summer were also great. I came to Penn and met up with SO MANY AMAZING people... at first, i thought ppl on my floor are just gonna be asians that are full of themselves, but not at all!!! EAch one of them (including the non-asian population) is an amazing human being. They all are people who i can talk to and share thoughts with. It's quite intereting how you can make so many good friends in the first semester of ur freshman year. And i already have my roommates for next year!!! it's just.... idk what to say... unbelievable. Tyler, Jon and Shuo are the ppl whom i'm gonna be living with... def. looking forward to it. parties, late-night snack, late-night talk, late-night halo, late-night staying up for NOTHING are just crazy. I won't forget any of these... and I'm going back there to make more of it!!!

The list below includes whatever/whoever touches my life in the year of 2004 (mostly random things that pop up in my head)

- graduation
- '04 senior class (EVERYONE!!)
- my dad, mom & brother
- beaches, mainly LBI
- kayt, eilleen, cole, matt, jessica, peter, niki, jason, eliz...
- infiniti g20
- car accident
- lifeguard
- seaside
- prom
- point pleasant
- Peer group
- Penn
- Tyler, Jon,Shuo, David, Frances, Marianne, Morgan, Alex, Ross....all the EH5
- physics labs
- sleep over at sayuri's
- drunk at tariq's
- parties @ Penn
- crazy late-night emo talks with jon
- early kiefer class
- o'donnell's hilarious mockings (hope he feels better)
- maggie, marley, christie, kaity farrell... the freshmen
- boogie board
- woman hitting my car at kmart
- new cell phone
- 20G iPod
- new laptop
- contacts
- taste of liquor & beer
- all the episodes of FRIENDS (late-night entertainment)
- thanksgiving
- chicken noodle soups
- ramen
- milk/cereo
- 130 meals left on my penn card
- first pay check
- first time for... um yea
- necklaces
- bracelets
- ocean
- yellowcard
- MUSIC, emo mostly
- swimming
- look of a girl who's in love
- voice of uncertainty
- mariocart
- aero beds... um...
- elephants
- pj's
- dolphins
- puss in boots
- pink pillows
- pictures
- late-night train rides
- smiles
- tears
- late-night study
- lost in the ocean & regained control
- phone calls
- birthdays
- summer
- slacking off
- penn football/basketball games
- staying up thinking and thinking
- basketball with tyler, jon, ross and shuo
- pool/bowling
- lies and truths
- garden state parkway, exits 64, 82, 95, 132
- 6 flags
- turnpike 13(where i forgot to get out), 7A, 4
- pull over and no tickets...(thank god and anthony)
- moulin rouge
- hoobastank
- maroon 5
- dashboard
- taking back sunday
- something corporate
- all the rides from LISA!!
- finding out i can go to taiwan in 2005 summer
- BioEngineering sucks
- falling alseep loved
- falling asleep loving
- econ sucks
- chris is ridiculously smart
- smelly room
- peach-scent candle
- matress pad (thanks for jon for suggesting it and kayt for finding it)
- underwear
- blue & purple
- green
- yellow
- april fool's
- turned 18
- late-night walk on the beach with the girl i love
- screw up trusts between friends, my fault totally
- learning new things and the way of relationship
- learn how to get back on my feet
- taught some chinese to a girl who can't understand it
- kissed and made out
- CVS
- flat tire
- AAA for broken starter
- woke up loved
- money
- not hold on too tight
- blockbuster, almost busted
- icies from 7-eleven, burger king
- NO ONIONS... allergy?
- 67 times and more?
- wendy's
- omgrsa (spelling? hehe... i'm clever, if u dunno, ask me)
- tried 5 crackers in a min and failed
- nice gloves
- getting stylish
- late-night movies and it's LATE
- sleeping overs... shhhh!
- sleeping on jon's floor
- frances & marianne's room
- huntsman hall
- no dining dollars
- xesss?
- skiing/snowboarding
- many towels, a small carpet and a refrigerator
- more money
- poor
- yellowcard concert... mad expensive
- wawa
- arizona green tea
- sunset
- early morning driving
- relatives/ family
- canada
- 898 ride
- moodsnc... lol, again if u don't know, ask me
- lighthouse
- waves
- coach ervick, coach k
- mr. keat
- nightmares
- sweet dreams
- LOVE
- HAPPINESS
- FRIENDS
- sun burn

toooooooo many things in one year, those are the things/people that popped up in my head... yup... this is my year of 2004......... i'm quite satisfied :)

time for bed cuz i'm going skiing at 7am to wrap up my 2004... should be fun

todays' new year's eve... wow

g'nite and get ready to say goodbye to 2004... it's been a pleasure and a blast.

...something to keep in mind...

2004-12-26T06:26:48Z

Give it some time... a lot of time as matter of fact,

it'll change things...

... ...

2004-12-21T16:48:51Z

yup

time to go home

...songs?...

2004-12-17T21:23:34Z

is there a song out there that can make you feel so peaceful and calm whenever you listen to it? yea... that's how i feel about this song... it's amazingly written and so is the whole content... i love it

<3

jenfu_penn4life @ 2004-12-15T19:41:00

2004-12-16T00:41:57Z

you're an elemental angel. an elemental angel is an
angel that is bonded to the elements and
nature.

what kind of angel are you?
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...reading days...

2004-12-13T06:01:13Z

reading days... well that's review the meaning of reading days...

who really reads during the "weekend" part of the reading days? I know NOT ME, nor the ppl on my floor, well, just a few on our floor actually READ/STUDY during this past weekend.

So... this coming monday and tuesday are gonna be super hectic for me. just to study and read for both physics and then econ. hopefully i'll be able to handle it.

Me, shuo, steph and fraces were all pretty mad about the show, Desperate Housewives, wasn't aired on ABC tonight b/c of the Eagles game... grr... let me tell ya, that show IS PRETTY AMAZING. It's funny for the most part. you just get to see the EXTREMES how housewives can get and all the stupid drama in the community just like high school ALL OVER AGAIN. yea... well. i'll prolly try to download it later once it's uploaded.

meanwhile, i just finished Ocean's 11, which was pretty awesome movie. Wasted another 2 hours doing that, in between of course there was some intrusion, but not for long. So right now, i'm all caught up and ready to see Ocean's 12 when i get home, or see it on the night of 20th with my friends, the last day of finals for us. woohoo!!!

To be honest, i sorta not look forward to this winter break. It's just things that's been going on. Weird stuff. But my dad's coming to visit so that should be fun. A real christmas with my dad. Hopefully he can get me some good present, even tho i highly doubt it. I want an iPod really bad but idk... but whatever. Winter break, winter break.

After winter break, i'll have 17 weeks of college left and then 4 months of summer. oh damn... just by thinking about it, it makes me really excited. I basically can do whatever i want. most likely, i'll go down to the shore. First, i'll go to NW to visit my buddy cliff, then off to Cape Cod for Tyler. Afterwards, i don't know what exactly i'm doing yet, but if anything comes up, i'll be down with it. I might be going back to Taiwan to see my friends, whom i've been thinking about for 3.5 years... damn. a long ass time. but yea... i'm really looking forward to this summer. Even though it is kinda early to think that far. eh, it never hurts to dream.

It never hurts to dream..... that's right.

Alright, enough of me for one entry just jogging down some of the thoughts that have been on my mind.

...peace of mind...

2004-12-10T16:49:43Z

so yea, it's been a while to feel calm again. This isn't that bad a feeling actually. Being calm is just being calm... it makes things a lot simpler and easy to perceive things that i never would've seen. but anyway... i'm back again. hopefully, this time this can stay for awhile.

time for some music and nap

... ...

2004-12-08T09:14:23Z

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, uld you let me go

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And i was thinking, what i was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said

...philosophy class...

2004-12-08T09:13:23Z

waiting is pain
loving is pain
and so is hating

but i'm only destined to wait and love, not hate.

hate is not a choice nor option, it just doesn't exist.

we all need to learn how to hate before learning how to love

...not bad not bad...

2004-12-04T08:36:29Z

first of all, just to have a shout out for those who are in the footloose... even tho i didn't go to the play, but i'm sure it turned out great. good job gang...

enough of that, tonight's been great, just been chillin w/ my friends with video games. it's really nice to have friends around and just have fun screwing around... but i'm still searching and waiting... and i know it'll be worth a wait at the end.

i'm happy and so is the person and that's good enough for now.

nite nite

...god damn it...

2004-12-02T03:52:26Z

stop thinking!!!

argh...

i'm so bored and when i'm bored... u know what

...long but interesting...

2004-11-25T09:03:09Z

as u can see the time right now, it's 4 am in the morning and i have nothing better to do...

to recap the day in a short and concise way...

it was early, long, interesting and WELL-WORTH it...

that's it, the short version.

like it or not, don't really care

g'nite

...one song, one mood...

2004-11-24T08:07:45Z

I don't know how many time i've listened to this song... but everything I listen to it... it just makes me think...

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here

Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

...fuck math...

2004-11-18T11:29:25Z

the second time that i'm going to bed at dawn... this sickens me... like, u just know that you stayed up WAY TOOO LATE when you see the cleaning ladies are coming up to clean up the mess. it's ridiculous... i better ace this math exam... otherwise, i'd be pissed. seroiusly.

so much integration and so much thinking... i'm tired & i'm off to bed........

that's right, going to bed at 6:27 in the morning...... ::sigh:: and it's not going to get better...

college life is so amazing

good night/morning...

...midterms...

2004-11-15T07:32:54Z

fucking god awful hours... i'm still up and studying for econ and math...

fuckin a, eh.......

night

it was good tonight at skulls...

2004-11-14T09:37:05Z

good stuff...

and i'm done

g'nite.

...yellowcard?...

2004-11-10T06:44:00Z

ROCKED...

the scalper ticket worked out just fine... spent just enough to get by... it was TOTTALLY worth the spending. I meant... the show didn't end until 12:30 cuz we were yelling, "ONE MORE SONG, ONE MORE SONG..." And they came out to play like 3 more songs for us... it was just ridiculous. All the songs they played I know and they played pretty much EVERYTHING. I was quite surprised how they stayed up there... definitely about 2 hours... the love philly and we love them and that's why... they fuckin filmed their DVD in eletric factory early on this year... so HELLZ YES!! we deserve more!!! Loved it. and that's enough said... oh yea, i crow surfed. It was quite awesome... felt bad about hitting ppl's head with my shoes, but what could i do?

alright enough being all excited and stuff, i'm off to get some work done for math.

g'nite!

...hasn't been interesting...

2004-11-09T07:42:48Z

As of right now, I just finished up my studying of the night for tomorrow's physics midterm... eh, not too bad.

Things have been pretty rough in some sense, but have been good in some way as well. I'm just blindly walking right now. Really have no direction besides working towards the summer. B/c I definitely know that this coming summer, I'm going to travel, travel and travel. As long as my parents let me and give me enough money... Traveling is good. It makes whatever happened in the past gone just like that. So I look forward to it... hopefully, me and my mom can hit up Europe this summer. Just two of us... it shall be lots of fun.

The top 5 most important things right now:

1. Be Happy
2. PENN
3. Friends
4. Sports
5. Focus

later

...eh...

2004-11-09T07:36:48Z

just don't know what's what anymore... and definitely don't know where i should go next.

strange.